In your version,
we were indoor
ice fishing, side
by side, smiling,
your lips tinged
with spice from
my weeks-old
kisses, and I know
we felt impossible.
You wished us
younger, wished
us different hours.
I’d lifted you overhead
in your version, spun
you weightless
on ice encircled
by dark pines painted,
and you were happy,
hence you took us ice
fishing, and maybe
that’s where the end
was for you, trying out
poles and nets in a
small hut inside
an indoor rink, just us,
breathmist, catfish,
the quieting down,
the let-go of weeks
dreamed up between us
who never kissed
with actual lips.
But in my version
I fished us a ball
of light. I fished us
a rocketship, shot us
through ceiling,
over trees, to
outer space, beyond
words hushed. I set us
in a dome of light.
I set us in a capsule
in the sky, said
here we live now,
and we left us there,
those other selves,
shimmering. Braver
poets we were then,
before this dying,
slow and slate-gray,
we silence through alone
in cars—tell me
you don’t believe that
dreamed-up day
was the best of life.
Darla Himeles is a Pushcart Prize–nominated poet whose poems have recently appeared in
Women's Review of Books,
Pittsburgh Poetry Review,
WomenArts Quarterly Journal, and
New Ohio Review. She holds an AB in English
from Bryn Mawr College and an MFA in poetry and poetry in translation from Drew University.
An assistant editor at
The Stillwater Review, Darla is currently pursuing a PhD in American Literature at Temple University.
more by Darla Himeles:
Ode to Unlocked Windows
Purple